Russia x Reader x Lithuania - Cold. [Request]

Russia x Reader x Lithuania - Request from ~rainbowchick214

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When you love someone who doesn't love you back, you find yourself trapped between bouts of sorrow and the regret of ever loving that person.

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"My little sunflower, I love you so much. You love me, da?" Russia murmured into your hair, stroking your back while holding you tightly, never loosening his grip.

"Da." You lied blankly. You never had any feelings for Russia, even though he treated you like his only treasure, showering you with attention and anything you wanted. You were forced into this relationship by Russia himself. You could sense the menace in his voice when he asked you to be his one and only love.You complied, regrettably, not wanting to lose your life. In a fit of panic, you agreed, sealing your fate with him. Though you didn't love him back, it almost hurt you to see him like this, loving you with all his heart, while you fed off his love and care, not even returning a single ounce of affection to him.

He released you from his embrace, running his hands through your lucious locks of hair, still stroking your back lovingly.

"You're my one and only sunflower, don't ever think of leaving me..." He whispered against your earlobe, sending spikes of shivers down your back.

"Da." Another lie. How you wished you could stop this. You didn't want to be with Russia. You wanted to be with someone else.

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You lay on your bed, thoughts running through your mind like a flowing river. You were thinking about what to do, how to manage your current situation. Sighing, you sat up, pressing your palms against your forehead. Russia was out for a drinking session with the Allies, and he refused to let any of his servants and you go along with him. You were sure that he wouldn't be returning until the next day. It was always like this. He would go out drinking, crash at someone's house and come back the next day, angry and frustrated due to the hangover.

You couldn't stop your mind from wandering to Lithuania. Since your childhood, you had loved him. You had played with him, gotten sick with him and the amount of memories that you had collected throughout the years were a reminder of why and how you loved him. Unfortunately, Russia had forced you into being in a relationship with him. You dared not to tell him that you loved Lithania, afraid that he would kill you both.

You wanted to break off the relationship so badly. You would never love Russia, and you knew that. You didn't want to give him fake love, a reality that was created by lies and unfufilled promises, like a sheet of thick glass covering the truth.

A gentle knock on the door sent you out of your thoughts. You gathered yourself, and opened the door. It revealed a rather shy Lithuania, smiling softly.

"A-ah... Russia's out today so.. maybe we could.." He fumbled with his words, fidgeting with his hands.

"Of course." You smiled, letting him enter your room. You shut the door, blocking the outside world from your sins.

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Russia was oblivious to the truth. He was quite a naive person, so to speak. He believed that you loved him wholeheartedly, that you'd stay with him throughout the ends of time. But that was all lies.

In truth, you had been secretly spending time with Lithuania when Russia was not around. Yes, the person whom you were in love with was Lithuania. You had been in a relationship with him for quite a long while, trying to make it as hushed as possible so that Russia would not find out.

It was rather hard to keep your relationship secret. Lithuania and you would constantly speak to each other when Russia went out and the other servants were growing suspicious of you two, seeing as to how you were quite close to each other.

You were hoping that Russia would lose interest in you, letting you be with Lithuania. However, you knew that Russia was very possessive. He could kill anyone just for touching something he found priceless, a treasure in his heart.

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One night, you couldn't stand it anymore. You wanted to tell Russia that you wanted to break off the relationship.

You headed off to his study, gently knocking on the door.

"Who is it?"

"It's me..."

"Ah! Come in, da?"

You opened the door slowly, peeking into the study. Walking over to his desk, you couldn't help but feel nervous. Russia could kill you for this. However, you were determined to set yourself free, even if he did not allow it.

He smiled gently at you, placing his work down and concentrating on your face.

"Did you miss me? Is that why you came here?" He asked, looking positively happy.

"A-ah.. I wanted to t-tell you s-s-something..." You figeted, your heart thumping violently against your chest. You were scared. Terrified of how he would react.

"You can tell me anything, sunflower. Anything, da?" He gave you another smile, one full of care and love. You could feel your heart breaking at that. You had lied to him while he loved you so much. You were confused, regrets slowly starting to form through your mind. No.. no... you wanted to be with Lithuania! You shook off your previous thoughts and focused on the hope that you would be with Lithuania. It helped, freeing you of your pity and compassion for Russia.

"Well?" He tapped his finger on the table impatiently, making you realise how much time you took to make up your mind.

In a fit of panic and anxiousness, you blurted out the three words that could possibly make you lose your life.

"I love Lithuania!"

You clamped your hand over your mouth and looked at Russia with shock. You were utterly horrified.

"What? Repeat that..." He smiled, believing that he had heard wrongly. He was starting to look rather upset, angry and furious.

Taking a deep breath to calm yourself down, you repeated what you had said, more confidently this time round.

Russia didn't respond. He looked like he was fuming, a dark purple aura of menace surrounded him.

"You... don't love me? You were lying?" He was crying. A sight that was rather rare for Russia. Tears slid down his face. He was sobbing now.

"You were lying... You were lying to Mother Russia..." The words left his mouth in a growl. He slowly got up from his table and within a split second, you were pinned to the wall with his gloved hands wrapped tightly around your neck.

You whimpered lowly, several tears escaping your eyes. He tightened his grip around your neck, making you press your arms against his chest, trying to make him release you. Of course, being the stronger one, Russia didn't budge. You were losing air fast. Your lungs were gasping for breath as you struggled against the strong Russian man. You never planned this to happen. Your conciousness was slipping away as you looked straight into his deep purple eyes filled with anger and fury, still holding a last shred of love for you. Your heart ached, seeing that he still loved you.

Just as you were about to fade away into darkness, the door slammed open and a shout broke Russia out of his trance and he released his grasp on you. You fell to the ground, breathless, desperately gasping for air. You lay there, on the floor, dizzy and light-headed. You looked up weakly to see Ukraine talking to Russia in rapid Russian, most likely asking him what was happening.

Ukraine looked at you with slight pity and turned back to Russia, once again shooting unknown Russian words at him. She sounded angry, yet compassionate. It was queer. She dragged Russia out of the room, opening another door to his more private study. Once you regained your breath, you wondered what was going to happen.

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Ukraine looked at Russia with almost a glare. It softened when she saw tears leaving his eyes, falling onto the floor. He looked at the ground, his stance almost imitating a guilty child.

"What were you thinking, strangling her? I thought you loved her!" Ukraine said angrily.

"She lied to me... She lied! She doesn't love me! She loves that.. servant.. Lithuania!" Russia whined.

Ukraine looked a little startled.

"O-oh... You love her very much, right?"

Russia nodded multiple times.

"She is my most precious sunflower..."

"Mama used to say that.. if you love someone, let them go."

"R-really? Does that mean I should let her go?"

"I think yes. It will make her happier than being here with you. Don't you want her to be happy?"

"Yes... I do..."

Russia thought for a moment before slamming his hand on the mahogany desk.

"Why... why does no one want to love me... WHY?" He shouted angrily, tears sliding down his cheek.

Ukraine said nothing.

Russia took a deep breath, trying to calm himself down. He didn't want to harm anyone. He just wanted love and care, but no one seemed to give it to him.

"I... I will let her go..." He said, before leaving the room, his head still facing the ground.

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"... You may leave this house, along with Lithuania."

You were shocked, even more surprised. Russia was letting you leave? It was almost too good to be true.

"Never come back..." He murmured. You couldn't see the tears falling from his eyes.

"Leave now... bring Lithuania with you."

"R-really?" You choked out, almost wishing you hadn't.

"Yes."

You left in a hurry, quickly gathering your belongings from Russia's room, rushing to get Lithuania. You didn't hear Russia calling out to you. You were too blind in joy. You left the mansion, dragging a rather shocked Lithuania along with you. He was stunned. You were both happy, and only that mattered.

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Russia watched you leave his study, heart breaking every moment. He called out to you desperately, wishing to the small chance that you would change your mind and stay with him.

"I-I... didn't even get to say goodbye..." He whispered, still gazing at the door.

"It feels so cold here... So cold without her..."

He wailed, letting tears slide down his face. He was fighting the cold again, with no warmth to support him.

He was alone again.

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